First of all, welcome to the HealingWell Depression forum. You have come to a good place. I am so glad that you have joined us.
Your english will get better with time. But is there somewhere that you could study it? What about taking classes? Have you ever tried that? I am not sure what type of classes you would take, maybe English? But either that or going to the library might help you.
I know that it feels bad to be dependant on somebody else for things. Especially when you want to be on your own. Are you working anywhere, you said he helps you with work but I am not sure what you meant. You need a job in order to make money so that you don't need him. That is if you want to be free of him. Although he is being a good friend by helping you, as long as it is for all the right reasons.
Take life one day at a time. Think about ways that you can improve on your english and find ways to make some money. Maybe some counseling would help you to get things on the right track.
Either way, keep posting and know that we all care about you and wish you the best.
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