Hello. My name is Steven, and I am 17 years old. For the past few months I have been thinking about
things. One of the things that I have been thinking about
is what career I want to go for. I am afraid that if I choose a career, I wonder if I would lose interest in it and drop out. Of course, I would'nt want such a thing to happen. I feel as if I am worthless. For most of my life, I have been given things off of a silver platter. Most of the things that I received I have'nt earned for. I feel that someone needs to hold my hand. I sometimes wish that I could simply just begin my life all over again. I also feel as if I have'nt accomplished anything in my life. Such as being a part of something. Like a baseball team or scout in a camp. When I was young, my parents tried to get me involved in these types of activites. But I was simply just never interested in them. When I listen to some kids that I know of being a part of something, it makes me feel sad in the inside. I never show my true emotions. When one asks about
if I am a part of something. I have no choice but to simply lie to them. It makes me feel very sad. I am sometimes a dreamer. I usually dream of things that will most likely never happen. Such as being a part of something real special. Being well known by people. Or achieving something, such as getting a trophie or an award. Sometimes, I think these are real. But in reality, they are simply not. They are just dreams created from my head. Another problem that I have is making new friends. Recently, I have moved from New York to New Jersey. I left friends in New York. Now, it's difficult for me to make friends. I have been living in New Jersey for less than a year. And I have been attending my new high school for only a couple of months. Since the getgo, I have made only two friends. I do know some kids, but I would simply consider them to be aquaintances. I do want to make new friends. It's just that I wonder how they will accept me. I wonder if they will like for who I am. What if they don't accept me? All of these questions are gathered in a big ball in my head. Well, I have really nothing else to say. I would appreciate if someone could give me some advice. Thank you.
Post Edited (Steven197981) : 7/29/2010 11:19:55 PM (GMT-6)