How do you live if you are not working and can't get assistance? Do you live with somebody who is supporting you?
When my husband didn't have any health insurance he talked to the doctor's office and they hooked him up with a program called tencon. It meant ten counties. There were ten counties in the program. They ended up covering his doctor's visits and his prescriptioins. But they didn't advertise this program, you have to inquire about it.
You need to see a doctor even if you have to make payments. It is really important that you get your fibromyalgia under control. I imagine you are in a lot of pain right now. Reapply for your disability. File under all your ailments. You need to be your own self advocate as nobody else is going to do that for you. Get in touch with mental health and see if they have any programs that you are eligible for.
For the kind of chat that you want, I suggest you google it and see if you come up with anything. There are crisis lines and numbers that I will post for you. But we are not allowed to discuss suicide here. National Suicide Hotline
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.
Helpful Web Sites:
Suicide Hotlines (listed by state)
Suicidal.com (includes Suicide Crisis Center and Depression and Suicide)
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies