Posted 8/4/2010 8:29 PM (GMT -7)
I will go from the start in as short as I can...
In my childhood, was nearly burnt to death, beaten, unloved never listened to the age of 14, Had ADHD.
When was 14 I lived with my dad and things got better at school/social life.
At 16 I met a girl, got into allsorts, Drugs/Alcohol for about 3 years, then had a daughter and stopped lived together.
We lived in rough areas, I used to work, my GF got into it again when was working moved homes about 3 times.
In our final home year 2007 was the worst, My Gf went out every weekend clubbing, I would stay home with my daughter, try and ring her as she was not home 4am in the morning, would get no answer/text nothing and she be away 3 days or so, I would be tracing up and down the hallway worried if she was ok,
This went on for a year on my daughters 2nd birthday she asked me to move out if I loved her, I cried begged pleaded I wanted to stay with her, but then her family removed me and changed the locks,
I got in trouble with police really bad for harrasment orders, when I wanted see my daughter, was homeless,
A year after my daughter was taken into care from her, or to my brother to be looked after,
Still fighting now 3 years on in this time ive found out that she used to prosti, tried suicide, done everything,
I have thought hard for my daughter and her safety, I couldnt have her with no home/job so my brother took her in, my family went behind my back in order to reason with my ex to see my daughter and dont care about me in the slightest,
Later to find out my dad is not really my dad and I have no family ive ever met I was 23 now 25 when found out I searched for him to find he was dead...
So... what I am asking is that ive been to the doctors and he has prescribed me for Anxiety/Deppresion.
But its getting really bad now,
My heart thumps all the time and is tottally heartbroken
Mind is all over the place and think My brain cells are dying due to getting striking pains, (thats recently)
Feel I want to die to ease my pain, but im not a angry guy but really loving.
Cant sleep and ive been through so much and what would somat be called if I was losing my mind,memory due to pain?
It is in a situation where I have no where to turn and nearly jumped off a bridge the other day, but this girl saved me and now doesnt even talk to me so makes it worse to wanna go again...
Appreciate your help Thankyou