Hello. I just want to say thank you for the reply.
But like you, we do both think the same. I have in the past thought about ending it all. Yet, to me it seems selfish also if we don't have life then what do we really have right?
Depression is a horrible feelin and not having anyone there through it only makes it worse. Yeah alchol and weed may be a simple and quick fix but when your sober it all comes back again... In my opinion I believe you need to figure out the real problem, not to blame other people but try to realize exactly why you blame them or is it really yours? It may be denial about you being wrong.
I just really would like to hear that you don't want to end it now, and if there is anything i could say that would help.