Oh sweety, trust me you don't want to end your life. You know I was down that road before too, but I got through it with help. It is hard to ask of help. And I am glad you found us. You can talk to us all you want, no need to be afraid. Your father needs help too. He has a sickness... the drinking. He didn't accept your mother's death. The drinking will cause things like hitting, etc and they don't know about it. Can you email people? You can talk to me anytime you want.
Here's a hotline for you too: 1-800-273-TALK
If you search google, there are some email support groups too.
You should talk to someone, whether someone here, counceling, hotlines, email. It is really important. Can you promise me that you wont take action on your thoughs of ending your life? What will your love of your life say if you do something? THat you don't love them enough? Have you tried talking to him?
Keep in contact. HUGS
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