I'm so overwhelmed ... again. I did just restart on my thyroid meds b/c PCP said my thyroid was super super slow. Couldn't afford meds for a while.
Hoping things will be better by a month from now, but just really struggling a lot right now. Have an interview tomorrow -- really just a formality as I'm supposed to get the job. Getting evicted this month ... a little sooner than I wanted, but somehow I guess I'll make it work. Auto case went to jury trial after almost 7 years; good grief! at least that nightmare is supposed to be over soon. Had to quit second job due to having a total breakdown & wanted to ... well, nothing good. Then I went & caused even more trouble for myself b/c I couldn't keep everything straight. All I can think about
is so much stress all the time. I just can hardly focus b/c I feel so overwhelmed. My mind just keeps jumping from one thing to another.
If I can get an offer for a job tomorrow then I'm thinking of getting one of those planners for people with TBI -- my neuro condition is something like that, but normally I can compensate quite well. Right now I just feel overwhelmed & confused & I can hardly focus or know what's going on. I just need to straighten things out and live a simple life. I kinda want to go on holiday in the Amish country. Probably that'd be bad having so much time alone with myself. Everything just seems so complicated right now. I just really want a break. And I need some sleep but with all the worries about
this stupid interview tomorrow my heart is racing like an Indy car. Tempted to take a sleeping pill but usually nothing good comes of those so I just gotta try to relax on my own. STRESS!!!!
(that's me -- I tried to cut my bangs & now they look crazy, so I'm worrying about
that too; I don't know why. Nothing ever came from worrying)
Hope y'all are hanging in there.