Welcome to the Depression forum. I agree with Myjoy. You have to learn to love yourself. And I think that you could use some counseling to help you get over the loss of your father.
Try to take one day at a time. We have a tendancy to worry about
the future and dwell on the past. So we have to slow ourselves down. Pay attention to what you are doing at that time. That helps with the clumsyness. I use to have that problem too. For instance when I was washing dishes. I would have to talk myself through each dish so I wouldn't drop it. So I understand what you are going through there. But you can overcome all of this with help.
Take care, keep posting.
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