I have been depressed for more than a month and under a lot of stress. May be this is a very minor issue compare to others but it is like the end of the world for me. I am a college student that suppose to graduate after a week. The thing is that I am taking one class as a core requirement, after that I am done with college. If I pass the course, life just goes on. However, I am failing the course right now, I just don't know what to do, I can't tell my dad to pay for my tuition any more, and now I have to no money to pay for myself. Also, I really don't want to be not graduating because of just one class. I just can't, my parents expect me to graduate after a week, I don't want to disappoint them, I can't disappoint them. And now I am too freak out to even check the score for the last exam, every time I try to do that I think I almost got panic attack. I really don't know what can I do now, I am too scared to do a thing. I can't get out of this thought, I keep telling myself "you are dying, you are dying because you are to lazy to study!!!!" Actually, I blame myself all the time, and in my mind I keep telling myself to work every second, but my body just do the opposite thing. So I blame and force myself the same time, but the more I think this way, I just do everything I can to avoid like sleeping the whole day and watch tv to stop thinking. It's like a bad cycle that torturing me for a month, I think I am going crazy, I can't stand it anymore!!!!!!!