Don't give up hope, if nothing else, the counseling could help you remain friends. If it comes to that. Take one day at a time. This is so very important. Because worrying about this only causes more stress which in turn makes you more depressed.
I am so happy that you two are going to couples counseling and that you are also going on your own. This is very important and can make all the difference in the world. It gives you faith that you are doing the right things for all concerned.
Do start doing some nice things for yourself. Even if it is just a bubble bath. You are a good person. You love your son. You see what this is doing to him and you want to protect him. That is so heartwarming for me. I thank you for that. It makes me feel good. And I know that you are a good person. Keep trying, mostly take this one day at a time. Don't make any really lifechanging decisions when you aren't thinking straight, go over them with your counselor and here. We will stand behind you with this. Know that we all care.
You are going through a healing process in the midst of all this turmoil. But the healing will win out because you are really trying hard. Know that I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies