most large cities have counseling centers or clinics for people who cannot afford or do not have insurance- i would look in your yellow pages or try googeling it i am sure there is something in Seattle it might take a little research but you will find one- you should not be embarassed about your depression I have been suffering from depression for a while now i think a couple of years and I just went to a doctor this week to talk about it - i am feeling a lot more hopeful and i have made therapy appointments too you do not have to tell your parents or friends at this point if you do not want to you just need to get some help! You are not alone, I hope you realize that! I hope that you will make some phone calls and get some help because you deserve it. I was embarassed to tell anyone about my depression and that is why it took me so long to see a psychiatrist but now i wish i had gone sooner. You can do it!