Thanks for joining the forum. I think that this is going to be a good place for you to participate.
First of all, it sounds like counseling would really help you. You need a sense of direction in your life with your feelings. You are persueing theater, which is wonderful and I agree with you about acting. You can be somebody else. That is what is nice about the forum too, because nobody knows you. You can be any way that you want to be.
Secondly, it sounds like you might have a mood disorder. Like maybe mood stabilizers could help. Along with an antidepressant. But that is up to a doctor or a psychiatrist to decide. Going to counseling might be enough. I hope so.
Self esteem is low. You are right about that. I am sure that you are a very wonderful person and working on your self esteem would make life a lot better for you.
Remember you can't wait on others to start a conversation. Start it yourself with just a hello. That works. You can always go from there, or just leave it at that. That other person might be doing the same thing that you are and waiting on somebody else to start the convo. So give it a try. Just saying have a nice day helps a lot. Smile. It makes people wonder what you are up to. lol... Seriously, you can glow if you smile. People are attracted to others who smile. And who say hello. It is easy to be happy. You just have to want it.
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