Posted 1/28/2005 4:52 AM (GMT -7)
Ok, I'll just get to the point here and would so love anyone's thoughts on my issue:
I've been seeing this man for well over 3 and a 1/2 years in which; I've caught him in lies, he's been on 'seeking females' personal sites..
*He went back to wife without telling me ( And yes, we'd still been dating then )...we're now engaged.
*He's controling and isolating me; won't even allow me to go see my own brother for a simple visit...I am disallowed to go anywhere without him
*His 18 yr old daughter who has an incredible anger problem has abuse me by shoving me, I banged my head against a wall and she *proceeded to kick me when I was down, with steel-toed boots....( 'he' didn't protect me in anyway )...and no, I was never given an apology, just called an f**** psycho.
*He has always refused my access to the Internet, I've foolishly chnaged my personal cell and phone number for him to appease him...
*He's constantly accusing me of things I do NOT do... ie: look at other men...
*And just last night, I needed his help to replace the heating fan in my vehicle...I'm truly stuck as I dare not go out anywhere in bad, freezing weather. I've been needing this repaired for 3 weeks now. He came up with a fan, but no tools.. NOTHING to work with.
*Well, to cut the story short, he left me with a vehicle and parts torn out of it..not replaced and NO fan replaced. He left last night with throwing my depression in my face before I told him to leave MY home, he said, " I'm sure you'll have many men in your bed tonight and they'll roll out in the morning to fix your fan!" And with that, he slammed my door, left me isolated re: the vehicle ( which is his intention all along and with no contact with anyone, not allowed friends etc )
*My health has been very poor as far as 'he and his daughter' are concerned. I've been hospitalized once, and I'm seeing my doctor and counselor about all this.
I can't do it any longer....the abuse is incredible and my body and mind reacts violently with anxiety, worry, physical issues ( stomach cramps, heartburn and headaches, etc )...he's not happy that I go see these professionals either.
Ok, please, any advise, thoughts etc..anything would be welcome. I've been questioning my own judgement/sanity, too as he's been twisting my mind so much.
Feeling terribly sad and violated...