I have a much better answer for you than leaving your family. Please go on-line and find the closest Al-anon meetings in your area. They are scheduled everyday...somewhere. They are free, and you will find much compassion there. I, too, grew up in an alcoholic, abusive home. I understand your feelings so much. Do this for yourself - if there is a phone number listed - give that person a call before attending a meeting. That's what I did - it's been a blessing to me and my family. Just google al-anon and your state or country (if not in the US). I look forward to hearing better things from you.
DX fibromyalgia 2007, OCD, depression, anxiety, sleep apnea, hysterectomy.
meds - fluoxetine (prozac), abilify, trazodone, lorazepam, nabumetone, hydrocodone, c-pap machine.
A friend loves at all times. Proverbs 17:17