I know you are looking for people to give you some advice....and I really feel badly for you...but I have a very supportive husband so I don't know what it's like to live as you do. The thing I would do is get some conselling. I have a good husband and a psychologist. If I had a bad one, I sure would need the psychologist. Don't be afraid to go. It will help you so much. Sorry I didn't have more to say to you....but please get some help.
DX fibromyalgia 2007, OCD, depression, anxiety, sleep apnea, hysterectomy.
meds - fluoxetine (prozac), abilify, trazodone, lorazepam, nabumetone, hydrocodone, c-pap machine.
A friend loves at all times. Proverbs 17:17