Sorry that I had to edit your post but we are not allowed to discuss self harm or illegal substances on the forum.
Welcome to HealingWell!!! This is a wonderful forum with a lot of help. Though I highly recommend counseling for you, I know that you don't want to go. So here are a few teen sites that might help you.
Some of these should help you. And we will do what we can for you. Though you don't sound actually depressed, you sound more sad at the loss of your friend. I hope that you feel better soon. Try to keep open communication with your parents. Don't feel like your problems are a bother to them. Because your problems are just as real as anybody elses.
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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies