Hi This is me,
I have to agree with getting by, I'm 15 and when i was 13 i felt the same way.. my dad drinks alot, luckily i have a really good relationship with my mum.. but my dad is always yelling at me and is stubborn and wont listen and just doesn't understand, i also fight with my brother constantly who is 17 now.. sometimes life is just that way, but there are things that can help, maybe if your family were willing to go along you could try family counsilling or some type of support just for ways to build up relationships and get things across to them so they know you are serious about this and not happy.
As for friends, i think you should consider yourself lucky to have two close friends!! I used to just have 2 or 3 really close friends that i would hang out with and really only stuck to them because i was also very shy and quiet if i didn't know someone, i felt lonely and like i didn't have friends only because everyone else had big groups.. in year 9 i came out of that shell and i am now in a group of about 40 girls.. sure i love it but it can get so *****y and you just don't have the same relationships with the close friends and its harder to get close to people.. I have to say i actually prefer have a small group of close friends. but if you really want more friends you could try things like joining a sports club which can also just make you feel happier doing exercice, or if your into arty things you could find out about some art courses and go along and meet people there.. drama courses, even tutoring groups and study groups i'm sure would be a good place to meet people!!
As for boys, as much as it seems like its the best thing in the world, and sure it is for some!! But when you get a boyfriend, its hard work, boys don't always initiate contact and its so much to think about and you have to be careful around other boys that they dont get jealous and its time you need for study etc!! One day the right boy will come along and you will know it, and things will work out.. :)
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15 years old,
Chronic stomach pain with no diagnosis yet and lots of other things.
When the going gets tough, the tough get going.