Jamiee, I hope you are doing well. I am in a much better frame of mind now. I finally weened myself off of Xanax and magically my depression completely disappeared. Anxiety was and is still a little high but I totally cleaned up my diet, made myself walk and/or exerise atleast 5 days a week and started meditating to calm my mind and forced myself to get through one day living with only positive thinking. Got through one day, tried another. Still have bad days but am much better able to cope now. Having been misdiagnosed so many times and unable to tolerate or want to tolerate pschy drugs, I struck out to heal myself, not an easy path. I am enjoying my job again, not exactly my first choice in work but happy to have a job and have adopted the attitude that in life , to be happy, you must "bloom where you are planted", wherever you are right now, even if it is not exactly what you want, do the best you can and hopefully good changes will come your way. This week I am on vacation Thursday and Friday, that makes me happy, I will have a little extra money to spend at the farmers market on really good food, that makes me happy, and last Sunday my Pittsburgh Steelers won (who needs a quarterback, right?) and that makes me happy.
I am a lucky woman. Trying to figure out how to help other people with this philosophy. I really feel I was put here to pass something along, just not sure how to go about it.
Let me know what is going on with you................................
Glad to hear from you,