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evolkitten
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   Posted 9/22/2010 10:12 PM (GMT -6)   
cry   this is my first time on this site and i hope its somewhere to vent ,and express yourself otherwise another one bites the dust. if anyone knows of any good sites let me know.cant ake much more and that lil lite at the end gets smaller you all know

theHTreturns...
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   Posted 9/23/2010 1:33 AM (GMT -6)   
hi moogles, jamie here.
 
this is a good place. welcome.
 
there is always light, i hope that with the strength of
 
the community you keep towards it. we understand.
 
you have been brave in posting, keep being brave and
 
seek support. maybe a chat with your dr. is required.
 
depression sucks, but treatments are out there.
 
sending healing compassionate thoughts your way.
 
jamie, the mad professor.
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
 
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
 
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

getting by
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   Posted 9/23/2010 6:16 AM (GMT -6)   
Yes, You can vent here. As long as you follow the rules, have you read them?

Welcome to the site. This is a wonderful supportive place. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

Hugs, Karen
  Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
 
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

evolkitten
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   Posted 9/24/2010 11:45 PM (GMT -6)   
thanks for replying back jaimiee didnt really expect anyone to i know it wont stay dark forever cause i have been in the light,ive seen it but for now its gone

theHTreturns...
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   Posted 9/26/2010 12:08 AM (GMT -6)   
here for you. jamie. it will turn around.
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
 
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
 
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.

evolkitten
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   Posted 9/29/2010 10:15 AM (GMT -6)   
i really never realized how hard it was to get help with this disease. even online and local support groups. i found a dr. and spent money for him to tell me im not getting enough sleep. when i clearly know it is not. so not only being frustrated that he gave me nothin useful im out money and back to where i started. there has to be govermenet funded programs for ppl like me that dont have insurance or the insurance which doesnt cover mental health issues.i have looked into a few and i know i cant expect istant results but i definatly cant go on like this . i know i have a few good weeks comin up soon where ill be happy and enegetic and be able to get up without crying all day but that also means that after that couple of weeks im gonna fall and thats what i dread.but i feel semi-ok today which is better then yearterday. so everyone have a survivable day and take care

stkitt
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   Posted 9/29/2010 10:44 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello and welcome to HealingWell.  I know you will find this to be a awesome site if you stick with us. Can you explain your comment in more depth as I am wondering how you know when you are going to feel up or down with depression ? 
 
Have you ever talked with a psychiatrist about bipolar disorder ?
 
Again welcome aboard. IMHO joining a support group is joining a family ~ you have found family here.
 
Kindly,
Kitt 
 
 
~~Kitt~~
Moderator: Anxiety/Panic, Osteoarthritis, GERD/Heartburn and Heart/Cardiovascular Disease.
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"If you can't change the world, change your world"

awty
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   Posted 9/29/2010 10:53 AM (GMT -6)   
Oh, I understand that comment very well evolkitten,

That is when you use all your energy to maintain some sort of 'normallcy', and when that isn't required anymore, you are able to return to the 'old you'. The energy required to appear normal, is huge, and when you let go of that, you return to the fimiliar.

Is that how you experience it evolv?

evolkitten
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   Posted 10/6/2010 7:27 PM (GMT -6)   
i can feel the onset of my depression by my thoughts  there not normal,full of dread and worries of things that will happen 10 yrs from now.i feel my energy slip alil more and then its that one morning i wake up crying, unable to function,and want to die.then when i feel my mania start i can tell because i can actually smile and i feel like am alive back in the world where everyone else exists. and i LOVE that time.i get everything done i dont need to sleep .the house is clean ,bills on time i want to paint and have fun and thats when i try to get everything done becauuse it could be weeks , months and what happens after that is the pit that swallows you back .  smoetimes though my mind and thoughts get a lil to much cause theres to much going on up there.  so i dont know thats how i feel.and today sucked.                                                                                                                                            
 
but yes my dr says i have bipolar 1 with depression and hypomania tendencies

stkitt
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   Posted 10/6/2010 10:19 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks for the clarification.  I am unipolar major depressive disorder.  I understand how bipolar works and I am wondering if you are on any medicaiton to prevent the mood swings?
 
I do not experience any highs as you do so I have to really force myself to be motivated which is a huge problem when your mood runs to the low side and the medications make you feel sluggish.
 
Thank you for sharing how you feel.  I wish I had the magic answer.
 
Kindly,
 
Kitt 
~~Kitt~~
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evolkitten
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   Posted 10/9/2010 3:26 PM (GMT -6)   
im actually going to the dr. on mon so they can do bloodwork ,ekgs and tests to see whats goin on and try an antiphysicotic/schizopprenia medication on me thats suppoosed to be be benefecially formy condition so well see it sucks its such a trial and error period and they better come up with something soon cause my soul's is sooooo exhausted ,mmy mind is lost ,and my body is soooo tight i just hope this high comes soon i need to function but i know i cant totally rely on meds i have to take over this myself,but for now itll have to wait
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