I won't give out my name, but I certainly hope that this is the place to vent and find solutions. I've run out of options. I'm not sure if this is the right place.
I'll just tell you the short version:
My spring semester of this year was a very stressful one, and then my father passed away in May. I'm already severely financially inept (if that's the right word), and I was unable to find a job during the summer. I was offered an internship, which my dad wanted me to go to. I told him the week before he died that I was considering it. Then I was pressured and manipulated by my (paternal) sister and others to go on ahead with this program because that was what my dad wanted me to do. Meanwhile, my mother and my sister are tugging me back and forth simply by the fact that they do not like each other, and I'm powerless to think for myself.
The program is worse than I ever imagined it to be. I personally don't care if it's a great opportunity for me, the area of interest in the program is not something that I know about
. Plus the apartments we lived in are full of so many flaws. The only time I have to relax is on late evenings, and that's pretty much null and void because of the roommates that I have to live with. They and their friends make it so much harder for me, and because they were having a loud party lat night, I asked my mother to take me back home for the weekend. They're not very sympathetic and they keep asking me about
my private life.
I'm also having friendship issues. Last year, one person screwed me over in so many ways. This year another person did, and I've become this bitter person who will just rant and rant and bring the third person down to the point where we had a fight last night and now I'm not sure we're friends anymore.
I don't know if you can help, but I just need to vent without being judged.
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 9/25/2010 10:17:37 AM (GMT-6)