I am so sorry for your loss. In time you will get over this. I know that it is hard right now, but be patient with youself and try to not be so hard on yourself. We all make decisions that we wish we could change, but we can't, so we have to move on.
Be glad that you have a job at all. It is hard to find a job right now, as if you read some of the posts, you will see that. So try to like your job until you can find something better.
Don't lose faith in people, you will make new friends, this just takes time. and if you have one or two good ones in your life, consider yourself lucky. It is hard to find a true friend.
I hope that you feel better soon. Take care, and keep posting.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies