I lost physical custody of my children 2 years ago. My two youngest (now 14 & 17) decided they wanted to live with dad (b/c its fun). I have battling his then girlfriend and now his wife (someone new). I am at my wits end. I received a message from the wife, indicating that she and my ex are not allowing the children to speak or have contact with me. This is because I let my 14 yr old (girl) go to a b-day party for a friend, she also happens to like the friends brother (same age), my daughter and 5 other children spent the night, and I even spoke to the parents to be sure they were going to be there. I picked her up at 9am the next morning (all children were sleeping in the living room). The step-mother decided that I make bad decisions and but my daughter in harms way, that is her basis for not allowing me to not see my children. The father agrees with her. This has been going on since Aug. My daughter wanted the # for the law guardian, because they wont let her and I see or speak, so I gave it to her and they took her cell phone away from her.
Any messages I send my son they read and respond, whether it be email/facebook/cell phone.
I found out last week that my mother decided to send my son a message (via facebook) that she disowns him and his sister. That is why my son wont speak to me, I'm being punished for what she did.
So on Friday of this past week, I cried all the way home. At one point I thought of taking myself to the hospital, or stopping at the drs to get meds. But since the ex always seems to find out what I do and uses it against me in court I decided against it.
I miss my kids terribly and it kills me to drive by their house and not be able to stop and see them or speak with them. My ex told me if I stopped he would have me arrested for trespassing.
My living situation is with my boyfriend (of 7 years), his two boys and his ill mother. My boyfriend tries to be supportive but he gets infuriated by the way my kids have been and are treating me. Because I dont deserve this.
I am miserable, I have lost motivation and I just dont care about anything anymore.
I don't know what to do anymore, or how to handle this.