I'm 21. I'm a mass media student. I quit my college for my ex as he didn't want me to be in the field of media. So I left my college in my 4th semester,which was before I went to his city and he did whatever he did. I also lost my granfather who I was very close to in that one month in another city. He lived there for his work. I saw him pass away in front my eyes,he was in coma, I never got to speak with him. It hurts.
Anyways by the time I came back my psychiatrist suggested I take a break,as I was not in the condition to go to university. The feelings haven't gone of doing it but I can't see the pain it puts my mom and my boyfriend through to see me in that state.
Me and my ex,were going to get engaged and I had been to his city with my family to meet his,and when I met him he told me he found someone else the previious night (the night I was on the way to his city) and that if I would have made it earlier to him he would have never left me.( I dont believe that piece of crap.....just hurts ! )
I want to take help,I know I can't do it by my own,I have been trying past 9-10 months to do it on my own it just gets ok one day and the next it falls all over me.
I have a set of friends but I don't feel like going out much. I meet them once in a while but other than that I'm home. I was on medication but after a while my mom would give me the pills on her own without consulting the psych. Now also whenever this thing takes a toll and I get breatheless and cant hold back my crying she gives me which puts me to sleep.
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