Well, thank you all so much for your input. I really do appreciate it. It's not a matter of peer pressure into drinking, or looking cool, it's more just the fact that I do relax, I do enjoy myself more, when I've had a few drinks in me. I am a senior and I enjoy the lifestyle I was leading here at college, it's brought me bounds of happiness. My depression isn't related to this, it's more of the fact that I'm having an existential crisis and a sentiment of unfulfilled of what i've done in my life up until now. I dont spend every waking moment partying, drinking, but I do enjoy the release of steam and the having a couple of rounds with my friends.
For me to give up drinking would be a huge lifestyle change, in which, I would not enjoy going out, to bars, to any parties, to any social settings. Essentially, I'd be alone on weekends, staying in. I feel like this would only add to my depression. I feel as if I'd not only have a existential crisis but also a social crisis on my hands. Yes I hangout with people when I'm sober and have meaningful friends, that I can speak about with in depth about life, philosophy, etc., but when weekends come around we have a routine of having drinks and hanging out with other "drinking friends", that I very much enjoyed doing. So yeah, I dont necessarily know what to do. I feel as if I'm in a lose-lose situation. But thanks for the advice, everyone. You're amazing people.