Trying to Understand Posted Today 12:29 AM (GMT -6)
So sad hearing you berate yourselves. I'm sure you aren't "that bad" and of course your families wouldn't be better off without you. They would grieve for a very long time. The older ones of us in the forum would like to suggest things that would make you feel a little better, knowing full well, that these up and down depressions are very difficult to take.
Regarding the negative self-talk. If you know about self-talk, then do you know about positive self-talk? Other side of the same coin. Eons ago, it was a very popular mainstream thing since Shad Helmstetter wrote a book about it, What Do You Say When You Talk To Yourself, and then it was discussed at length in every magazine you picked up. You got a dose of it wherever you read. Nothing is a cure all, but I do think it is worthy food for thought.
Just this week I was checking Amazon for tapes to listen to while reclining alone on the bed. First I googled, and came up with Shad's very own website. Went there and he has a pricey set for sale. There were many complaints from people who ordered them, months ago, and their credit cards were charged but no tapes. No response to inquiries. I'd hate to think Shad is a big Muckety Muck now, but am wondering. He of course looks different than he did in the 70s, but very polished and fancy. Tapes were featured on Amazon, but they were unavilable at the current time.
Dang ! Don't want to support Shad's lifestyle, and wanted a set of used tapes or CDs. Guess I'll have to READ A BOOK
Don't know if you have seen the post, Desiderata. It means things desired. Its a very comforting thing to read and re-read, and back in the day we made copies and exchanged them with one another, there were other popular things like it as well. They stayed on night tables and folded in wallets. Please read it.