You know I realised while reading your message that you are saying and feeling exactly the same thing I felt two years back when I started being with the guy I love. He had no friends no social life, and me I was just the opposite. He and me would talk for days and I would at times feel like I needed space. Eventually I would fight with him. But than over time I started changing I loved him so much that changing myself felt to be a better option than even imagining a life without him. We planned a future together and everything was so perfect with it's down mostly from my side caz I would be unsure about
my feelings. And than one day he met the girl who didn't even once get annoyed for being on the phone 24 hours etc etc. Over time I had become the girl too who loved him so much that I would do anything for him,but he left me saying that I was not the one for him.
All the pain of changing and everything was thrown back at me. I had a breakdown and was depressed. Till date I miss him and feel it was my need for apace that pushed him away.
You still have the chance to make things, or it would be too late the way it was for me. Either let it go or adjust with him. See the positive side of it you are getting the love and attention many of us crave for. See it's hard to let go of oneself but you could speak with him and tell him that you need some time for yourself. All this only if you really love him and wouldn't be happy to be with out him or else maybe take a break to figure out what you feel. But just one thing don't make it too late.
And I notice nowhere that you mention how you feel for him. Its a question of two lives try to find out what it is you feel,and soon everything would get better.
People are different but if you love someone you can build a bridge to built up the gap. It's not easy but it's not as hard as being away from the one you love.
“Faith isn't faith until it's all you're holding on to”
Post Edited (annie.d12345) : 10/9/2010 6:40:55 AM (GMT-6)