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Date Joined Apr 2008
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   Posted 10/18/2010 9:39 AM (GMT -6)   

Phiiiieeeewwww, long long time. How long, like 2, perhaps 3 years? I still see some familiar faces around, Kitt, Jamie, how are you all doing? Karen, you still lurking here as well?

Anyway, for those interested, a brief history. I think I stopped visiting this place when stuff got even worse for me. I got into therapy, and after half a year started meds as well. Things were going a little bit better and I decided to try and go to university again. That didn't work out, before the first day stress made me so sick I couldn't do anything any more. So my therapist and I decided it was time to take another step and I got into 20-hour a week therapy with people my age. I was there for 9 months in total, and in that time I found the name for what I had / have. It is called Body Dysmorphic Disorder, and depression and social phobia where only side effects. Knowing what caused my sadness and insecurity helped a lot, and me being sick of being sick lead to me doing everything I found hard to do. For those who never heard of BDD, it is kinda like anorexia only you don't see yourself as fat, but as deformed. I felt like some alien experiment to recreate something that resembles a human, but failed. Every time someone would look at me, I would fill in what he or she thought and trust me, that wasn't very positive.

Anyway, right now I am off meds again, actually studying (environmental sciences), I live on my own again, and actually enjoying life for the first time in a long, long time. I changed from being unable to leave the house except in complete darkness with a hoody and a scarf on to walk around the campus without too much on mind. Girls used to be my worst nightmare, now I actually have a gf. Not to say all is fairytale like perfect, but it is getting close :).

So, there's my story, my sincere apologies for forgetting you all :(. I'll try to visit this place a bit more often and try to give this community something back for all it has done for me.

Cheers, and all the very best!


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Date Joined Sep 2008
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   Posted 10/18/2010 10:24 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Erik! Good to see you back. I'm glad to know the therapy helped you determine the cause of your depression. It seems you are doing better and congratulations on your relationship. You were such great support for all of us when you were here, so I hope you will continue popping in every now and then :-)

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   Posted 10/18/2010 3:20 PM (GMT -6)   
Heeja NW!

Thank you! How have you been doing, and more import, how are you doing now? Hope everything is OK. Knowing myself I can't really say how often I will pop in, study and teaching is taking loads of time and energy and both of those I only have in limited supply. We will see :-)

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Date Joined Sep 2007
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   Posted 10/18/2010 3:34 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey Erik,

Wonderful to see you on the forum. Yes, I tend to lurk. I am back to work and haven't had time to moderate, but Kitt has been so wonderful helping out in my absence. I hope not to put this responsibility on her much longer, though she is so loved here and I think she enjoys it too. She has been a life saver for me. I have no worries when she is here.

I am happy to hear that you have a girlfriend Erik. It sounds like you are happy and doing well. I am so happy that you checked in to let us know this. I hope taht you ahve time to continue to post.

Take care my friend. Again, so happy to see you posting.

Hugs, Karen
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   Posted 10/18/2010 6:14 PM (GMT -6)   
Yeeehaaaaa, I is here !  I get to play with all Karen's peeps while she works ~ not a bad deal huh? 
I am delighted to hear you have a dx and a new girlfriend too.  You have worked hard to come this far and you deserve to be happy.  Do stick with us and let us know how you are doing and bring the girlfriend next time turn .
We will always be right here to support you !  Good to see you my friend.
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Date Joined Jul 2006
Total Posts : 1257
   Posted 10/18/2010 8:31 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Erik,
So glad to see you back. It is good that you got your diagnosis and have had therapy.
It is a big help when you know what the problem is. congrats on your relationship.
You have always been such a great support here and I hope you will continue to post
and let us know how you are doing. I really missed your "heeja" greetings! Take care
of yourself.
Many hugs,

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Date Joined Apr 2008
Total Posts : 585
   Posted 10/19/2010 11:57 AM (GMT -6)   
Heej :)

Wow, awesome to see all you here! Awesome to hear that you are working again Karen, how is that going for you? Is it work you can enjoy?

Kitt, how's you? With some luck, I won't be around too often for support, though I am grateful to be welcome here when times are hard.

And Aurora, great to hear from you again! How have you been holding up the last time? I hope you are OK.

Major hugs to all,


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Date Joined Apr 2007
Total Posts : 32602
   Posted 10/19/2010 3:07 PM (GMT -6)   
Same here Erik and keep on moving forward -  just put one foot in front of the other.  So good to hear you are making progress. 
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