Hi, I haven't posted in a long time. A year ago today I was in the hospital after having a
major portion of my colon removed. It was a terrible time for me. I had many set backs
but I am now well although I am definitely a different me. I don't have much energy but
I am grateful that I survived the seriousness of my illness. I have made changes in my life. I am now an empty nester as my 36 yr old son moved out this summer. That was a big adjustment for me as I was afraid to be alone in the house and I do suffer from loneliness so much. But I decided the only way to help myself was to get out of the house and join groups and do things I haven't done before. I am a volunteer at my local senior center and I have taken quite a few self improvement classes and meditation classes all in hopes of making some new friends. I did reconnect with an old friend from many years ago and I make a big effort to make plans with friends when I can. The biggest change is I rejoined my old childhood church. I had really started to lose my faith last year and one day I drove past the church and something just drew me to it. I started attending every Sunday and I have joined the hand bell choir, a very new experience for me. I have learned this past year that no one comes knocking on your door to say 'let's go do something.' I was wallowing in my depression and loneliness but I found that no one would help me unless I made the effort and helped myself. I still see my therapist and am on my a/d med but I have come a long way from where I used to be. The hospital and dr. bills put me on the poverty line but I have a roof over my head and can manage to get by. I am grateful for my two wonderful sons who are a great support for me.
I just want others, especially those who are feeling overwhelmed right now,to know that there is hope. I have pulled myself up from the depths of despair to finding strength I never knew I had. I have my moments of feeling depressed but I know there is always a solution for the situation. I hope I have given others a chance to see there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you to all my HW friends who have been so kind to me over the years. I won't be going away, I want to answer those who need support.