so, the lady and i are over. i have not spoke to her,
if i do i will be-definately slapped with an intervention
order. her mum last fri stuck a note, that was savage
under my door telling me to......off!! so sad, moreso
for the lady, a women, a yr older than me, yes with
disabilities, but with abilities toooo!! i am saddened that
her sadistic mother is keeping her non-intergrated
and dumbed down. obviously there is a lot of
learned helplessness via mum to daughter, daughter
only knows of her mum's authority and dosen't
realize that she too has a voice.
i hope this dosen't come across as mean, but i can
no longer put myself at constant peril for her.
aaaarrrggghhhh!!! i have tried to intergrate her,
i have helped her speak up for herself with her carers
and service provider, i have given her love and
tenderness, as she me. but this relationship never
got wings, never stayed with me, everywhere with
a darned carer, and i have done all the mandatory
training as well. i was hated from day 1. i was called
a pervert, i was told i was taking advantage of a
vunerable person, @#$% i am vunerable!!!!!
what people with disabilities can't have meaningful
relationships!! furthermore her mum works for
here support agency. a cold hatred...................!!!!!!!!
enough.... i am fine....sadly she is not. she loves me,
as do i. i am glad for the time that we shared, even if
it was supervised. hopefully i have instilled some
fire in her belly so she can one day, stand tall,
leave home and be happy.
jamie, sorry a bit of a rant.
YESTERDAY IS A BUTTERLY WITHOUT WINGS. (ME)
DX, MDD, SEVERE BORDERLINE PERSONALITY DISORDER.
REMEMBER TO LOVE YOU. BE YOU AND BE TRUE.