I've been battling depression and anxiety for about 3 years now. It all started my junior year of college. I don't think anything specifically started these feelings of anxiety, but possibly the stress of life itself. Early on when the symptoms started to occur, I had a terrible roommate, I was near to ending my relationship with my fiance who I had been with for 6 years prior, and I still didn't know what I was going to do with my life. I was lost. I felt helpless and always sought out someone or somewhere that made me feel comfortable to help ease the feelings of anxiety. about six months after I broke up with my fiance, I met my current boyfriend whom I've been with for almost 2 years now. He completely turned my life around and made me happier than I ever imagined I would feel. We live together and have a very happy relationship and I plan to marry him someday. Just recently, I've been feeling the same depression symptoms that I did when my life was going for a dive. I have no reason to feel this way....I have a loving relationship, supportive family and friends, two jobs, and part-time schooling. I've found a comfortable balance for everything, yet I still feel these terrible, life-disrupting feelings of depression. Often times, I feel lost and confused and disoriented. I tell my boyfriend about these feelings and they affect my mood greatly...I'm no longer the happy woman he made me in the beginning and I feel like I'm letting him down and putting stress on him as well. If something goes wrong in my life, I have a horrible habit to let it get the best of me, causing stress, causing anxiety, and then the feeling of hopelessness. I want to continue to go to my boyfriend for help, but I can't keep doing this to him. He wants a fun, loving woman who is happy like he is, but I have been nothing of the sort lately. I will not let this ruin our relationship which could eventually result in me losing him all together. I'm so afraid of going down hill more than I already have, and losing everything that ever meant something to me. Thinking about my life without my boyfriend is something I can't begin to comprehend....what should I do before things get so bad that I push him away? I'm not opposed to medication, but I need to find a natural way to control these feelings of doom. Please offer suggestions....I need someone to understand.