Thanks for your support. I am seeing a therapist, but she is a psychologist, not a psychiatrist, so she cannot write prescriptions. She's not that keen on me getting back onto an AD herself - after I told her what happened.
Honestly, the side effects themselves caused more depression than the AD was capable of helping me cope with.
I have issues with meds in general. I'm allergic to penicillin, erythromycin, and I'm pretty sure now cephalexin. If I ever get into a serious accident and need massive antibiotics, I'm probably done for.
I had a major side effect with reglan and a significant one with celebrex too (neither side effect listed for the meds unless you dig deep - so not the common ones). I can't even take pseudoephedrine at the normal dose because it causes me to buzz.
What I can take, is ibuprofin, and lots of it, and though I had my 1st visit to the pain clinic, no meds were prescribed, only therapy and an upcoming trigger point injection - so I continue to take ibuprofin at about 6-9 a day. I thought I was pretty clear about how many I took a day, and one would think they wanted me to reduce that, but PT is only going to work so fast, so the NSAIDS continue.
My body, apparently, does not agree with quite a few meds out there, and it isn't always an immediate reaction. With what happened on Cymbalta, I don't want to get 5 mos. into a AD med, then find out it's doing this, that, and that, then have to get immediately off of it. I went cold turkey on Cymbalta, and I paid for it dearly. But with what happened on Cymbalta, I felt I had no choice.
All of what you state - the meditation, exercise, etc, are good things, but without a med to be on, they are only going to help so much and no more - as you state.