That feeling sounds so familiar. You are right, an emergency visit might be in order. I am sorry that waiting list is so long. That really is a shame. When people need help, they need it now, not a month from now. Will this be the first time that you have seen this psychiatrist. If not, maybe you could give them a call and let them know that you feel in crisis. I just want to see you happy again. It does get better, so have faith. Go easy on yourself, do some things that you would normally enjoy, the feeling of happiness might come back. Or take a nice relaxing bath. Be good to yourself until you can get help. Maybe explain that you are in a rough place right now and that you don't mean to yell at the children. You are trying, that is for sure. You care about your situation. I only see it getting better, not worse. As long as we try and are aware of our situation things tend to work out.
Best wishes for a better day.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies