Posted 11/17/2010 11:30 AM (GMT -7)
So, i recently got dumped and i dont know... i love him so much. Like i really cant live with out him and i guess he doesnt understand that because, he now has a new girlfriend. And safe to say, its killing me to hear about them. See, my mother never supported our relationship. So, we went through rough patches, and i thought about leaving him forever a couple of times as well. But, i didnt because i believed he was the one. You know.. like my soul mate or somthing. But, now i realize none of that exsist because look what happend? He said he loved me like an hour before he left me, how do you think i feel? Empty. Like.. i have to puke but, im not sick. Like nothing is on my mind, im not there. I wanna die, but then again i dont. Because then i wouldnt see him. And maybe whats so hard is that i still speak with him? But, heres the thing, i feel like im going to die if he doesnt text me. All i wanna know is how to make this go away, i cry all the time.. and i cant get over this. But he can? Help me please.
this is going to sound cheesy, but i'm going through the exact same thing. well, i've been through it, and i still am.
it hurts right? and i know a lot of people are going to promise to you that you'll get over him with time, keep your distance etc etc.. none of it will help. you'll just get used to the feeling. you know the feeling right? the one that is difficult to explain, it's inside your chest and kind of burns and aches and is impossible to really describe how it feels, but you know what is being described once you've felt it?
i had to dump a boy because he was treating me badly, really badly. i thought he was the one for me, and all of that, i know that me having to dump him will make it seem like i brought 'the feeling' on myself, but i didn't. he dumped me, and gave me 'one more chance' repeatedly. i had enough. he was basically already with another girl. but to cut a long and painful story short, i dumped him after over a year of being together, and he went out with her the next day.
So i know how it feels.
the incedent with me happened months ago now, and not a day goes by where i don't think 'what if?..'
and at first it hurts, and you just sit and cry and feel so bad. you think, you almost know, that if you could just do one thing, you could get them back. but there's a reason that you're not together, and although you may never accept that, you will soon find instead of getting over this boy, you will begin to get used to the pain, you will feel numb. you can never cure a broken heart, you will always renemeber, and cherish what you had, when you had it, and renember it for the right reasons- but learn to realise that there's a reason for everything, and a better thing WILL come along, it may takes years or months- but it will. i promise. trust me.
if the pain ever gets to much please don't do what many of us do. it may seem like an easy way out, but it's not and you just get worse and worse and it doesn't work trying to attempt to take you're life. trust me.
no boy is worth that.
you may feel like there is no point, but there is. and that point is that you are surving now right? maybe you don't want to at the moment, but you are surviving, and thats a whole lot better than being dead.
renember, this boy will one day realise what he's missing, and you will have someone who treats you right. and the girl? she's not even worth thinking about.