Thank you so much for your advice about my recent break up. I mean it, thank you. But im sorry to admit that i'm still not believing that this happend. & Also as many of you said, you hope i dont take him back? And once again, im sorry, but i would in a heart beat. Ive never been so happy with anyone ever. All my past relationships before that were just fake, just a waste of time. They just used me for sex. Im surprised im still a virgin! Like, every one of my boyfriends wanted sex 2 days after dating. I thank God i said no though. But, this ones different. He loved me before he asked me out. He never forced me into anything, ever. I decided what i wanted to do on my own. I mean, they boy only wanted to see me! but my mother wouldnt let him cause of the age difference. And my mother doesnt like the fact that he's emo like me. She wants me to be somthing im not... Im not sure how to make this short but, he was there for me. He was there when my mom did the worst things she could of... i depended on him. And he left me as soon as my dad did. So now im stuck with her alone, no father, no "pocketmonster". If thats okay, im going to call him that so i dont have to share his real name? My sister tells me cause we fought alot, and i have to admit we did. But i get upset easy, so i cant help that. Ive tried. I didnt WANT to fight with him, he just made me angry. And i know he didnt mean it, but i like to state my opinon and win easy. I dislike being wrong. So, i guess what im saying is, what do i do? Who do i depend on? I have no one. My friends dont care whats happening, they ignore it. And my mom is too busy crying over dad to notice im hurt too. & Im pretty sure this is karma. She got what she deserved? So why was i punished as well? Why didnt he stay when he knew my father left? I keep thinking maybe because he didnt want to deal with me complaining all the time, and you know? even if thats who i am... i regret it. Like, maybe i shouldnt of got mad alot. Held my anger inside. That way he wasnt mad. I was only thinking of my self basically. He's been through much more than me and i should respect that.. i really should. But im not finding this fair. Im really glad he's happy... but why cant i be happy with him? Its like one of us has to be sad for the other to be happy. I hate it. Lifes unfair and im sick of it.
(What are they gonna do when the lights go down?)