i don't know, i can't take it anymore. if it's not one thing, it's another. i'm a complete miserable failure at work, i'm reminded every single day. everything i do is wrong, they make me feel incompetent, hell they've even told me i'm incompetent before. but, i can't quit. i really can't quit even if i wanted to. not for another 3 1/2 years, and if they kick me out...well, that will ruin the rest of my life, and other jobs as well. it will be on my permanent record forever. i feel so stuck. and my husband used to be a happy go lucky guy. he used to be happy...until we got married. now all he does is tell me how miserable he is and how b/c he had to move he doesn't have any friends and how he's always angry these days. i'm a failure at work, i'm a failure at home, my husband gets angry over everything, weve only been married less than a year! i can't even confide in my parents b/c my dad is "proud" of me, and i don't want to tell him i'm a failure and how much trouble i'm in, becuase i don't want to embarass him or ruin the illsusion that i'm not ok. and my mother...well, she'll pretty much tell me she knew i was a failure all along. that's what she's told me virtually all my life. that'd i'd never amount to anything, and i think she's right. god knows i've tried, but i can't. i don't even have a good friend to talk to things about...i'm just waisting away. i've tried to make friends, but every single friend i do make ends up using me for one thing or another, and then stops being friends with me when they don't need it anymore. my heart is heavy, i don't know how much i can take of this.