First of all, welcome to HealingWell and the depression forum.
I lost my husband ten years ago due to lung cancer. The only thing different is that we had some time together as we knew he was going to die. I realized that I should have been making the most of every day with him. That is what I make sure to do now, make the most out of every day.
Here is a site that might help you to find some counseling.
I hope that this helps. Continue to post as the members here are so kind and compassionate. Be good to yourself. Grief can take a long time and is different for each individual. I have made many friends here and I hope that you do the same.
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fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies