A warm and welcome to HealingWell. I think it was a big step to come here and talk with us as that was a brave thing to do ~ sharing your personal thoughts and feelings with others. Please know we care.
I am sorry to hear what you have been going through. You invested 8 years of your life into this relationship, you wish to be with your boyfriend and in the end you have been let down.
First of all let me say something very positive. The first step in the recovery process is to understand how broken you really are due to the ending of the relationship. Only after you admit to yourself that you are in trouble, is it possible to start the healing process. Dear Laiza, I feel you have hit the rock bottom. That is actually a good thing: from now on your situation will start to improve.
You are no longer sinking down; you are starting your ascent back to the surface and back to life.
While you are waiting for the sharpest pain to subside, there are things you can do to speed up the recovery process. You wrote that you have not been able to let go of your boyfriend emotionally.
There is so much this life has to offer, even if you cannot share your life with your boyfriend. I know you do not feel like it right now, but after one year your world seems completely different. I have been where you are now, I know exactly how you are feeling. I also know what will follow ~ You will get over this. Right now you must be patient and give yourself enough time to grieve your loss.
You have done nothing wrong and his leaving was his decision. Don't keep calling him or texting him as he will not return the calls no matter how much you want him to. Let him go and start to rebuild your life knowing that you have joined a awesome support group. Keep talking to us and know we care !
With deepest regards,
~~Kitt~~Moderator: Anxiety/Panic, Osteoarthritis, GERD/Heartburn and Heart/Cardiovascular Disease. www.healingwell.com"If you can't change the world, change your world"