I am new to reaching out and asking for help. A friend suggested this site the other day. I have issues with depression, anxiety, chronic pain (back--disc problems), psoriasis, and thyroiditis. I hide and downplay how I bad feel and pretend I am OK. I am a master at redirection and a great actress. Everyone depends on me--I am the sole provider and can not afford to lose my job. I live in fear all the time. I have basically hit a wall and can not go on this way any more.
I was prescribed Lexapro. I took it a couple of years ago, then started to feel better and didn't renew the prescription after the year's prescription ran out due to financial pressure. I stayed off for about 2 years, during which time I got into some less than optimal behaviors and drank a lot. I started Lexapro again recently, but am getting a lot of flack from my husband on why I am taking it again. My natural inclination is to go along to get along.
I've done such a good job pretending for so long, at disconnecting from all feelings that I do not know how to communicate to my husband or others that all is not well.
Any advice for me?
MDD, Anxiety, Panic Attacks, Chronic Pain, Thyroid Disorders