I'm sick and tired of being depressed! Honestly it is hard enough pretending to be happy on the otside!
I just wish I didn't have to deal with this. I want to go back to the person I used to be but honestly I
can't. I am happy he can't hurt me anymore but now I feel more depressed and scared then before. I
don't know what to do anymore. My parents are impossible to talk to becuse all they do is tell me not to
worry about it and that there is nothing to worry about, but they don't understand that I can't just not be
un-scared or un-depressed that easily. My friends or atleast the ones I have told don't really know how
to help me either. on top of that my little sister yells at me all he time calls me stuff like: "you are such a
****ing *****" "no one likes you" " you probably made half that crap up to get attention!" "you are ruining
my life" and then later that night she cries on my shoulder saying sorry and that her and her boyfriend are
fighting and she doesn't know what to do. She doesn't understand that she is hurting me almost as much
as the whole abuse/police/meeting all these strangers/court process. I am seeing a counselor but it isn't
helping . I'm just getting worse. It only toke a year to go from telling friends suicide and cutting wasn't the
answer and that things will get better to I am. I'm tired of pretending to
be happy when I'm actully not. I can't deal with all ths choas in my life. I just want everything to end but it's
like there isn't going to be one. I can't do ths anymore!