I am sorry I had to edit you post but we are not to mention anything pertaining to suicide or self harm on this forum.
I am sorry for you issues that you are going through. Know that we all care about
you here and want to support you through this. I think your bf needs counseling and you could probably get him to go. If you are thinking the worst right now, you might want to contact somebody to help him. Even if you have to call 911. If this is serious, don't hesitate.
I will post a hotline for you.
This is a place where you can post about suicide if you feel the need to. There are also numbers that you can call under depression resources at the top of the page. I hope that things get better for you. Keep posting...
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies