I was in a very bad relationship for more than 5 years , but I have been married for 4 yrs and I have a beautiful child. OK, I am a very happy person, lots of ambitions, want to go to graduate school, be a great mom, fun and loving, and enjoy life but I need to explain. I married this guy that I loved to death, and I had the best image of him well a yr into our marriage i found out he was lying to me about everything and he was cheating on me and expecting a baby , well I left him but u know after being seperated for year I decided to give him another chance for the baby.. WEll i went back with him to discover he was worse unloving, rejection, he was acting weird, doesnt stay home, sleeps out, same old behavior same pattern, i began to get sick, stressed a feeling i never experienced I had my first panic attack and i began to get afraid feel negative and depression. Well anyway, I left him about a month ago... I couldnt take it nomore,,, i am now trying to cure and heal myself. It is a very horrible feeling , i feel like nothing is fun anymore but Im trying to go with the flow , im trying to be positive for my baby. plz help.. how can i just forget him and move on...forget what he did, and just let go of the past and the depression and anxiety, im tiered of the symptoms. no one understand around me. u just cant snap out of it, i know its possible i have been taking baby steps for past three weeks and i have been feeling better, but still need to be more confident and higher self esttem.