Hello and welcome to HealingWell.
I am sorry you are feeling so sad and confused right now. I admire you for not going down that slippery slope all the way to the bottom.
I do not feel dating several people when you are single is an awful thing to do as many people date. You were free to date whomever you chose and it is good to have friends to go out with.
I would like to see you not feel that you need someone to help you get better because they are a love interest. Getting better has to be something you do for you and not someone else does for you. We are the only ones that can heal ourselves. The support and love of others is a good thing and we all need that but knowing he went off and easily found someone else does not speak well of his intentions toward you.
I am not sure you are saying goodby to a relationship that was grounded in love
IMHO, trust is an essential part of being in love. Without trust you can't really have love.
I have had depression for 28 years and I have had long stretches of good times and not so good times. I have an awesome husband of nearly 40 years yet facing my depression is something I really have to do for myself with the help of my psychiatrist, my therapist, and my support group which includes my family and my friends here in HealingWell. It's crucial to take the long view that depression is not a life sentence, ... I'm on your side. I want you to heal and feel better.
~~Kitt~~Moderator: Anxiety/Panic, Osteoarthritis, GERD/Heartburn and Heart/Cardiovascular Disease. www.healingwell.com"If you can't change the world, change your world"