Posted 12/15/2010 8:32 AM (GMT -6)
Im really new to this, not really sure where to start, but i know things need to change with me, and im hoping someone out there can give me the guidance i need?
Ive been battling depression since april, its been hard and some days i really feel like im doing okay, and then others i just hit such a low point i wonder if im improving at all, everytime this happens its like im drowning. But the thing is, its messing with my head, its making me exaggerate things in the past, to make them worse, almost as though im bracing myself for when they are. I need to stop making this stuff up though, because its gonna get silly, and if it eventually comes to light that some of what ive been through wasnt how i said, ill lose my friends, my family, my boyfriend, and ill be right back where i started with the depression, just feeling alone and useless.
I really want this all to change, im going home for christmas from uni soon and i want to see my boyfriend and my family and know that im doing okay, and that all the lies have stopped. I dont want to be the way i am, i used to be happy :(
If anyone can help itd be so appreciated, just advice, or anything, i want to get out of this :/