well i had my health assessment and diagnostic assessment today and it just seems like alot of people to deal with. i have my therapist, a nurse, a caseworker, and soon to be psychiatrist. the assessments went well and he thinks with groups and meds and lists i should get to where i need to be. i go the 30 to see the psychiatrist and then maybe i will get my meds. it just seems like a lot and taking alot of time when i want it done now. i know im impatient. it seems like my world is filling up fast with doctors and doctors and doctors. do i need any more. the caseworker wants me to go to an alnon meeting, and look at CHADD which is a foundation for ADD, and he says since it is in my family history to keep my mind
open that bipolar cannot be ruled out down the road, in which case i would be on two different meds. omg it is a hole lot. its a lot to process and figure out.
i go on wednesday for my surgery so i will not be on for a week or at least til i am feeling up to it. i will miss you guys the week that i am gone. i just want to be normal again as i dont feel so normal right now. but i am learning to love myself again. its slow but im learning. oh my caseworker says im not stupid either.
The only person who can make you happy is you. Be your own self and love who you are because each and every one of you are wonderful for who you are
"No one really dies because they have loved. Because they love they stay in the hearts of the people they have touched so in that their memory lives on." Ghost whisperer-i know corny but this touched me deep down and i see so much truth in it.