Although you feel like a freak, I have found that people really are very understanding, if you can bring yourself to tell them. I suffered for years, and was sure there was no real underlying problem. After recovering with Effexor (whole new set of problems there) I began to see things differently. I read a line in a book which said "depression is rage denied". Whoa, I felt like a hammer dropped, and a light went on at the same time! I try hard now to keep control of the influences other people have on me (as I internalize anger). It's exhausting, but worth the effort. Find your "button" and try to keep people from being able to push it!