Hello, first off this is my first post. My name is Courtney and I'm a 22 year old Business student who loves Japanese anime and video games, especially Japanese made video games.
A year ago I had a major breakdown after my ex fiance' almost literally kicked me to the curb, a few days later I attempted to, but I was caught by a family member, one of them being my cat who is like a daughter to me. I got some help after that, and even though I've been struggling with the heart break of my ex leaving me, its actually been a blessing in disguise. I completed my G.E.D., I'm in college now, and I work out three times a week to lose weight. I am about 230 pounds, and I'm aiming to lose 100 pounds.
However despite my efforts, I've been really down about my looks lately. I broke down in the school cafeteria earlier which was incredibly embarrassing. Not only do I have my weight, but I still have a small acne problem, thankfully its no where near as bad as when I was a teenager. However I still have small scars left over from that time.
I just basically don't feel comfortable in my own skin, and I don't feel pretty, which every girl deserves to feel.
I also feel the fact that I don't have any friends or a girlfriend (I'm ***) due to my lack of looks. It's incredibly lonely.
As I said I'm doing all I can to lose weight, I work out, I even try to eat a lot healthier. As for my face, well in general I take good care of myself. I shower every day, wash and condition my hair, and I use lotion after every shower. I also scrub my face after every shower with the Loreal face wash that has the little scrubby with it.
I would post pictures to get some suggestions and feedback, but I am unaware if it's allowed or not.
Sorry sweetie for the edit, but we aren't allowed to discuss suicide on the forum. Thanks for understanding... Karen
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 12/18/2010 7:40:34 AM (GMT-7)