I grew up with my mom and dad being together for about
2 years of my life. People say that a child doesn't have much of a memory up until after they're 2 but with my experience that isn't true. I watched my dad get drunk and beat my mom until she was unconcious and we always thought she was dead. There was many times we would stand over her looking at her thinking she was dead. After my parents divorced we were to spend every second weekend with my dad. The only problem with that was that we would go to spend the weekend with him and end up staying at our grandparents and see him one day of the weekend, Sunday, for Sunday supper. I went through a depressed suicidal phase and went to a councler for over a year and my mom had always told me that my dad knew about
it and knew why I was going. I was talking to him tonight and I asked him why we never talked about
me going to councling or why I was going. I was going because I was lonely, I felt like he really didnt want us and I was having flashbacks of the fights between him and mom. I use to to see how much I would to see if I could rid some of the pain I was feeling inside by inflicting pain on myself. My dad had told me that he didn't know anything about
me going to councling or why i was even going or even the fact that I was suicidal. I don't understand how all these years my mom could tell me he knew and he just didn't care. How do I fix my trust issues when it comes to this situation?
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