Thanx you guys for the posts~
I truly do appreciate what everyone is saying to me and realize that only a few of you are familiar with me and my depression. Not to "beat a dead horse" but my depression has pretty much swallowed me whole. I look at it this way.......if I am getting disability for being "sad" I must be really sick. Believe me, I wake up every day hoping that I will feel better from that time on. I realize that we all suffer loss and grief. I also know that there are others that are not as fortunate as myself and suffer far worse things in life. When you look at the scheme of things in one's life, is one's sufferage really worse than others or is it the context in which we suffer?
I know once again I am rambling but it keeps my mind busy and I think less about what is going on every minute of every day. I can tell that life is taking its toll as well when I look at pics of me over the holidays. I look so sad and there is no light in my eyes. My daughter's facebook has a couple and I am saddened by the way I look. Oh well, its back home now I finally was able to use the computer at the library because the holidays are over and they are finally open.
Im sorry that I am such a downer but I would be lying if I did anything different.
"True love is a soul's recognition of it's counterpart in another"