Hello and welcome,
When I was first struggling with depression 27 years ago, I never thought that I was a person that such a disorder would ever belong to me. I found it was very difficult to admit I was not coping. I felt it reflected a weakness and I did not want anyone to know. I felt people would think less of me for not being on top of the world and perfect in everyway.
Admitting and accepting that there are some things you need outside help with is the first step to getting better. You are not alone in this depression or in having a weight problem which also hits our self-esteem and knocks us down. I know people can be very cruel to anyone with a weight problem.
A competent PCP can help you get started on the right path to working with your depression as well as your weight problem. May I suggest counseling as it is something you can do for yourself and you are important, so take that step. I have belonged to weight watchers forever and even thow I may lose weight I will gain weight too. That makes me feel sad and ashamed but I never give up.
A weight watchers meeting offers so much support and celebration of each goal you reach with nobody putting you down for any steps backwards.
Coming here and talking with the members was very brave of you and I look forward to getting to know you better.