i am feeling tons better today. i have even gotten some housework done. my nose still has a lot pressure and is still draining some but i am not as tired today as i was last week.for four days i could not stay awake no matter how hard i tried. and then at night i was up every 2 hours changing the bandages from my nose cause it drained more at night from my snoring.
my life is starting to feel like it is getting on the right track. i go to see the surgeon for post op visit on wednesday, on thursday i go to see my psychiatrist to get my meds. i have a list in my phone of things i need to get done and i am almost through that list. i am starting to be able to breathe again, literally and figuratively. i know i will have some downs and i hope to ride the flow. i have to find an alnon meeting and attend one cause my caseworker wants me too so i will do at least one. that one im nervous about and im not sure i need it.
hubby has gotten me a kindel, which is an ereader so i now dont have to go buy books i just go online, download the books and read them from the device. it was the best christmas gift ever. all i need is a light for it and im set. i am almost done with one book now. when i told him i wanted one he told me that he didnt see the sense in it as i will still have to buy the books but he was playing it off. no more paperback or hardcover books lying around. i can download 3000 books to this thing. i have 150 books already. some i have read and some i havent but hubby spent 15 hours researching and finding all the books from stephen king, dean koontz(my favorite author) all the harry potter books and even the twighlight series. 15 hours and im sorry my gifts to him was not that lavish. i feel kinda guilty but he said he loved what i got him.
i have no reason to be depressed really, i have the best hubby in the world, he had two nights of no sleep taking care of me, was there for my surgery, when he had to work he called me multiple times to see if i was ok. sure we got into a small fight christmas eve but im sure some of it was lack of sleep. he is thoughtful and always has the best surprises, and he loves me. even though i am ADD he loves me. dont get me wrong, i am still feeling kinda depressed and not normal, i know i have a long way to go til i feel normal again but i keep reminding myself what i do have and maybe just maybe i will get to be normal again.
The only person who can make you happy is you. Be your own self and love who you are because each and every one of you are wonderful for who you are
"No one really dies because they have loved. Because they love they stay in the hearts of the people they have touched so in that their memory lives on." Ghost whisperer-i know corny but this touched me deep down and i see so much truth in it.